Without You Here (Finch)

I'm beginning to realizehow boring I am letting myself become. I had every intention to gp out on the town some friends tonight. I brought clothes with me to work so that I couldn't turn back. It wasn't untill 10:00 that I get the call saying where to meet. Unfortunately, I was already in my bed mode, watching the Mavs by that time. It's not that I think I'm past that part of my life. To be honest, most of it is that I am 5,000 miles away from my boyfriend and it's just stupid to put myself in that situation. He trusts me and is probably the most layed back guy that I have ever been with. And there is no way I would ever do anything to hurt him. But when it's something I don't really care to do in the first place, and with people who aren't my closest of friends, it's almost not worth the trouble.

I have lost almost all desire to go out, and even tho I will never lose the desire to dance, it's just not as fun without him. Getting dressed up isn't fun anymore because he isn't here to see it. I don't blame him at all for that, and I'm sure it's a good thing that I feel this way, I guess I'm just starting to grow up.