Hear You Me (Jimmy Eat World)

I can't seem to focus on anything these days. I have been letting my mind wonder about Spain a lot recently. John is having a great start to his season, averaging 12 points a game off the bench and nearly 8 rebounds a game. It would be wonderful if he could average a solid double double, but I don't know how many minutes he will get once the league play starts next weekend.

Since it looks like things are going to go so well this season, it's looking more and more likely that we will spend the first year or marriage in Spain. Who knows... maybe the second and third year. All of it is so scary to me, but at the same it's a chance of a life time.

Everyday something happens that reminds I'm all grown up. I am seeing people I love go through things that "kids our age" shouldn't be going through. I am beginning to look at people who are older in a different light. I'm seeing the flaws in lives that I have always thought I wanted. I am seeing people who I consider to be so strong fall weak. A slap in the face maybe? Just makes me realize that a person's priorities make them who they are, and something i strive for is to be a good person.

I can't believe how fast September went by. Seems like my life has gone through so many twists and turns in the past 6 months. I think about the days where I felt like things would never look up and then I think of moments that felt like I was on top of the world. Seeing my family go through what they have gone through with Lia has made me realize that you need low times. If things in your life keep going higher and higher eventually there is just no where else to go. Makes you grateful for the bad times... and grateful for the good.

Just a thought I guess...