Today (Smashing Pumpkins)

Today marks one month since I have been back in Oklahoma City. Four weeks since I have been at my new job. 21 days untill John gets back for the summer. In a months time, seems like almost anything can happen, anything can change.

A month ago I was sure that I had found my dream job. I was worried that the excitement in finding a new career was pretty much over.

A month ago John and I had a lot of things figured out. It seemed like there was a plan to all of this for the first time ever.

A month ago I was annoyed by being woken up to the sound of my nephews playing superheros outside my door.

Today I discovered that no one should ever be fully content with where they are. You should always try to strive for more achievement, but not in the ungreatful way. In the same way, you should always be proud of yourself. Be happy with how far you have come because no matter how much your parents have helped, yourself and God are the only ones responsible for your success. I decided today that the next step in my life is to go back to school, and get my mastor's in Sports Marketing. I LOVE my new job and it is so perfect for what I need right now. But my goal is (and has been for a while) to do Sports Marketing for the Mavericks (regardless of how much they suck right now.) This is the next step. While I'm earning my mastor's i'll be getting more and more experience with my job, and by the time i graduate, there will be so many places for me to go.

Today John told me that an agent in Spain found him. He had pretty much had his mind set that he would stay over there one more year, then come back here to live. But I guess that Spain has a lot to offer him. Including an extended contract which will be great money and is a great chance. But it means 1 of two things... 1) We will continue this crappy situation until im nearly 30 or 2) I'll have to drop the things I just started to move there. That would be awesome, but it's just up and changed everything. Nothing is official tho, he hasn't signed anything. Just kinda something to throw me off I guess.

Today I decided that I really really miss my family. All of them!